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A challenging bake

leslieruf's picture
leslieruf

A challenging bake

Today I dedicate this bake to my eldest son, who suddenly collapsed and passed away 4 weeks ago today. My head is everything except okay but we could no longer accept store bought bread.  So I chose a simple loaf to start baking again (Forkish overnight white) but I have to say the pleasure I normally have is missing. 

crumb shot

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cranbo's picture
cranbo

I'm so sorry leslieruf, my deepest sympathies to you and your family. Your bake looks really lovely and delicious, thank you for sharing it with us. 

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AbeNW11 (not verified)

Sorry to be hearing such news, wishing you a long life. My condolences. Glad to see you're baking again and they do look lovely.

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pmccool

imagination fails to comprehend your grief and words seem so inadequate to convey my sympathy.  I pray that you find comfort rather than pain in the reminders of your son's life. 

Paul

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PalwithnoovenP

My deepest condolences to you. Those loaves are beautiful.

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clazar123

Just a sense of devastation for you.

Your loaf is wonderful. 

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Arjon

Fwiw, there is a school of thought in psychology that says it's helpful during emotionally difficult times to do things you enjoy. They won't be as enjoyable, but that's still a step above doing nothing or things you don't enjoy. 

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leslieruf

it is hard but Arjon you have a point.

Leslie

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dabrownman

for a life lost way too soon,  My condolences for your terrible loss.  May happy baking one day return to you and may your son rest in peace,.

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hreik

I am so sorry.   Cyberhugs streaming your way.

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Isand66

So sorry for your loss.  There are no words that will make the pain subside but know your "family" at TFL has you and your family in our thoughts.

Ian

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nmygarden

Sad to learn of your loss, Leslie. A tremendous shock and obviously far, far too soon. Please know there are many of us with you.

Your bake turned out very well, so clearly, your hands still know the way. A nice tribute to your son's memory.

Cathy

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Apple Betty

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Beautiful looking loaves.

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leslieruf

has been a huge comfort. thank you all for your words and prayers - we still have a journey ahead but with friends and family we will get there slowly.

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Jane Dough

I am so sorry for your loss.  The loss of a child is a sorrow I cannot begin to imagine.  My thoughts and prayers go to you.